Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman hanyalah orang-orang yang percaya kepada Allah dan RasulNya, kemudian mereka (terus percaya dengan) tidak ragu-ragu lagi, serta mereka berjuang dengan harta benda dan jiwa mereka pada jalan Allah; mereka itulah orang-orang yang benar (pengakuan imannya).
( Al Hujurat 15 )
aku mahu bersama dia
berjuang bersama
menjadi teman setia
saat lara
saat suka
saat duka
saat gembira
aku mahu bersamanya
hingga ke syurga
berlari lari mahu mendapatkan syurga
aku dan dia
sepertinya
langit dan bumi
aku dan dia
mungkinkah bersama?
namun kupercaya
takdir-Nya mengatasi segalanya
walau tidak bersama
kita masih bersaudara
dia bukan biasa
dia somebody yang luarbiasa
hatiku terpaut
terhadap cintanya
mungkin ini cinta
mungkin ini hanya sekadar mainan jiwa
mungkin ini bukan cinta
namun pasti
andai benar cinta
syurga itu destinasinya
syurga itu arah tujunya
aku mahu dia
bersamaku di jalan ini
bersamaku berlari di jalan ini
bersamaku berkejar-kejaran
berlumba-lumba antara kami siapa yang bakal sampai dulu ke syurga
ya Tuhan
jiwa mujahid perlu kental
sudah cukup kentalkan jiwaku ini?
untuk benar-benar berjuang bersama pejuang?
"awak tak boleh breakdown"
dia bukan insan biasa
dan aku jua tidak mahu menjadi insan biasa
juga bukan yang biasa-biasa di sisi-Nya
ya robb,
Engkau lebih mengerti
apa yang terpendam di sudut hati
Engkau lebih mengetahui
apa yang terbaik buat diri ini
sungguh tidak kurasa aku yang terbaik buat dirinya
moga kita antara mereka yang mewarisi dan diwarisi..
kerna suatu tika nanti
pasti kita semua bakal disoal Ilahi dan juga nabi
Apa yang sudah kita kerjakan di atas dunia ini..
moga tiba waktu itu
kita mampu menjawab
dan punya SAKSI
dan mampu berdiri
membawa saksi
yang menjadi saksi
atas segala kerja kita di dunia yang fana ini
teruskan berlari!
kerna waktu tak akan berhenti
dan kita boleh mati pada waktu yang bukan kita ingini..
semalam hari ini dan esok
adalah waktu-waktu yang silih berganti
saban masa ada detik yang mewarisi
detik-detik yang telah pergi
ombak datang dan pergi tiada henti silih berganti sentiasa ada yang mewarisi mewarisi dan terus mewarisi agar lautan akan terus beralir hingga manusia mengambil tugas nabi
manusia adalah makhluk
yang melayari waktu
yang memerlukan para pegganti
untuk mewarisi para pelayar waktu yang bakal pergi
agar manusia dan waktu
saling berganding meneruskan sebuah kehidupan
kehidupan sebuah perjuangan
""Sometimes, what you see isn't actually what it really is. Always stay true to yourself, if you want to people to see the good in you, you should be good, be kind, and not because you want others to see it. It's just who you should be" - Aunty Hani's blog
ini adalah blog. personal. jgn expect ejaan sume betul. sy takde masa
nak cek ejaan saya. n jgn expect bahasa sy sume sedap2. sbb sy takde
masa nak pikir bahasa sy ni betul ke tak. tapi saya menulis dari hati.
so in away, yeah..i would just wanna say.. DON'T JUDGE ME. oh tapii
kaalu nak judge jugak, silakanlahh. heh
but before nak judge tu, I would suggest you to watch vlog org yg semakin meletup skrg ni..
(kalau tak watch tu.. rugi arr.. i would say ketinggalan zaman!)
oh kejap lagi satu, JGN EXPECT, i would be so ORGANIZED. acceptlah sy as saya, as what it is. n i knew there will be so many RANDOM below. tak ikut kronologi. and saya takde masa nak edit n ikutkan kronologi, susun thoughts sume. to me, right now, i have much muchmore important things to do dri keje remeh tu. kalau nak organize jgk, akan makan msa. n masa sy dah cukup limited dah.. nak mandi, studi lagi, gosok gigi... so in away.. just bear with me la ye. i dont want myself to feel like..sbb rase mcm kene meet expectation org(which I assume they hv expectation), then that stop me from sharing what I feel and what I belief which is important. saya nak sampaikan apa yg saya rasa penting, tapi kalau org lain tak rase penting, takpe je. tak kisah pun. itu awak. saye, saye lakan? hohoho
anything it is. Allahu 'alam. Allah know the best. and to Him, I put my trust.
oh ya. again. ni personal belief je kot. tak pakse sesape nak ikot pon. kalau TERasa inspired tuh, anggaplah tu HIDAYAH dari Allah. aku ni takde ape pon. hamba dhoif je sebenarnya. so jgn pandang tinggi2 sgt ye. I'm still human. not malaikat. buat mistakes jugak. same je mcm korang2 nii.. takde beza. still anak adam.
sebenarnye nak cerita mcm2 about my story. tapi just that I need to learn how to organize myself better. as for now, I want to do a lot of things... but then.. kena pandai manage, handle, dgn studinya, rumah, take care of diri sendiri jgk..dont asyik ingat org lain je smp terlupa diri sendiri (seperti pelempang yg Allah kasi dlm quran..) < yang jugak ayat ni abah selalu dok sound and marah kat aku. huhu
pluss ayat ni baru je tadabbur haritu dalam usrah .. lagi laa rase mcm ape je..
Allah melempang dengan lembutnye, Allah cakap, (ini cara aku paham ayat ni)
"ko ni jgn pk nak ajak orang buat baik je, tapi ko terlupa diri sendiri padahal aku dah kasi kat ko manual hidup kot. takkan tu pun tak dapat pikir?"
or in away.. oii aku dah kasi ko otak, akal tu.. gune ar..
bak kate nabil, lu pikir la sendirii..!
below is luahan hati yg betul2 deep deep down from my heart. ambiklah apa yang baik, yang buruk tu jadikan sempadan. sama2 kita perbaiki diri. I'm not perfect. I'm still human. have sin, buat salah. tapi nak je belajar ape yg salah. Allahu 'alam.
baiklah. dengan nama Allah yang maha pengasih n pemurah..
bismillah
detik hati..
susahnyeeee.. bila mak sendiri tak happy dgn kite.. hu kite bukan nak buat benda tak baik punn baik je tapi tatau nape mak kite mcm tak suke tapi faham je kot nape dia tak suke =( but thennnn kite pun tak dapat nak paksa diri kite ikut mak kite.. susahhhhhh.. i knew that i need to obey parents that is obligation. but in this case.. bkn la pasal benda wajib or pasal akidah pun..(err..ye ke bkn?) yes. it just sunnah. but then.. i don't understand why I cannot do it? faham je mama risau. dah la anak bongsu. sorang pulak tu kat oversea. kang kene attack ke ape camnerr(nauzubillah) tapii
faham sgt kerisauan mama tu. ish bkn tak paham. tapiii nak buat jugakk.. heh aiyoo.. sori mama. kite kan mmg budak degil dari kecik. mungkin mmg Allah dah cipta kite sebegitu rupa kot? - err apakah ini alasan? eh tapi mmg betul la. only u know how stubborn am I. only u know if I determined in doing something, I will do it. Remember when I was in high school, giler determine nak amik gak bahasa arab time SPM even takde cikgu nak ajar sampai siap kene cari cikgu sendiri etc.. and I still can remember until mama sound, 'takyahlah amik kalau dah payah sgt..'. I knew mama bukan tak bagi, tapi just tak encourage/support je. oh well.. I don't listen. 'pekak'kan telinga, nak buat jugak. because to me, arabic is very important that I couldn't leave it. tak kisah ar mama kata ape, but I still stubborn in my own way..
and yeah. sometimes, I feel so so bad. ya Allah. only Allah knows.. sometimes, when you said to me, "adik.. you never listen". T_T you know what, that really crush my heart.. hu.. tatau nak describe tapi rasa sgt2 sedih.. ma.. I just wish you understand me better. there must be reason why ur little stubborn daughter cannot listen to you. hu. but in the same time, I admit that I'm still immature and when I start to get matured day by day, I have more wisdom in me. and I change my mind, to try understand my mum better. instead of blaming her, that she never understand me but I told myself,"hurm.maybe I'm the one that NEVER understand her"
mama mestilah kenal dgn anak mama kann. lahir dari perut mama kott. but somehow i dunno .. everyday kdg2 kite rasa evilnye.. mama tak support pakai purdah. tapi kite pakai jugak. smp at one time, kite rase mcm.. hu.. what is the meaning I'm wearing it? what is the meaning I'm doing something but it's not making my parents happy.
in fact, at this moment, the moment where I be heard by the WORLD, I still feel like.. hu.. "mama ni betul ke proud dgn aku?" Is she really happy with me right now.. ya Allah..dalam hati ni mmg Allah je la tau. takut jugak sebenarnya lepas interview tu.. takut nak face mama. sebenarnya mmg nak share dgn mama..dah post dah link dkt wall fb mama. post dua kali.. sbb first2 cancel.. then 2nd time post.. tapii.. lepas half an hour..rase tak konfiden.."ye ye je mama can be proud/happy with me?" heh. even bajet je dlm TV kata, oh i dont want to be slave by other people etc.. but then, dgn mama ni aura dia lain..aku cukup takut nak dgr ape mama kata. aku dah tak kisah dah ape org lain nak kata. pada aku sume tak tak sepenting apa kata mama. ye la kan syurga tu bawah telapak kaki ibu. =.=.. oh beratnye.. selalu rasa, i'm not a good daughter. I didn't do enough..never enough for her. but her.. masha Allah.. she always has PATIENCE with me. oh mann I couldn't describe more.. how patient she is with me.. ya Allah bless my mother. bless my mother. bless my mother. forgive her, for anything wrong that she did.
anyways, from before day interview lagi da even the world can be proud of me. " ye la.. kan org TV tu ckp something like this "she go against her parents".. I was like.. OMG.. kot yer pon ko takyah r highlight benda tu kot.. malu sehh. aku rase mcm penjenayah yg dah buat benda evil giler je.. go AGAINST her parents. =.=
is that someting you can proud of? I feel like at out of place. but alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal. Allah twist benda tu nmpk mcm baik. heh padahal sebenarnya mungkin tak baik. Allahu 'alam. aku biar Allah je la yang nak judge aku ni baik ke tak. lantak pi la satu dunia nak pk aku ni baik cam malaikat ke, bidadari syurga ke (konon).. tapi hakikat sebenarnya only Allah knows. Allah je tau ape hari2 yang aku face, detik hati..hu.. takutnyerrr.. tetiba semua pandang kat kita.. even maybe takdela sume.. tapi terasa mcm.. the whole world looking at me right now.. (orr aku sorang je perasan?)
till then. fair enough for now. fuhh fuhh.. la haula wala kuwwatabillah
alfaqir ilallah, everjihad
209 Fort York Blvd, Toronto, Canada 7:20AM 27 Jan 2012
So glory be to Him in whose Hand lies control over all things. It is to Him that you will all be brought back.
- Yaasin 36:83
there will be a time where your SINCERITY is tested. would you expect something in return as how much that you have give in? you might forget, what you gave in is nothing as compared what has been given to you. O Allah, please purify my heart. Let this soul be in peace. Accept my deeds and don't let my heart go astray. Ameen.
And remember Our servants Ibrahim, Ishaq and Ya’qub, men of true strength and inner sight. We purified their sincerity through sincere remembrance of the Abode . The Holy Qur'an, Surah Sod, Chapter 38, Verses 45-46 ~ sincerity comes when God is the only reason that you seek for ~
At one time in your life, you might feel someone stepped on you, and it is hard to stop feeling uneasy, or 'count' for every single things that you have done but try to ponder and reflect, sometimes in your life you might already stepped on HIM too much without you realize. And would He count for every single bad things you did? Yet, He still blessed you with so many other blessings! Therefore, when the time hits you hard to forgive and forget people's misdeed, just remember that Allah deserved more than you do.
Never expect people to return your favor on them. Disappointment is what you will get. But rather remember that Allah will never disappoint those who doing good deeds. He is (asshahid) witnessing and He is the Most trustworthy.
if you think you already done enough, or feeling doing good enough to her.. hey come on laa. you are nothing to be compared to the Prophet's generosity. The one with superb amazing example..
For any real number, if we divide by infinity, then we will get zero.For any responsibility we have, if we divide by infinity excuse, then we also get zero action and vice versa.. stop making excuses, just do it!
