Ahad, Jun 10

be forgetful to be forgiven


This morning I get mad at her. again and again. Am I hot-tempered person? I don't know. but truly I cannot stand with a person that losing 'common sense'. That truly annoying and get me irritated.

However, in another side, looking bad at myself, I still have a long way to go.
Living with her really taught me patience, and 'berlapang dada'. Imagine if one day I'm going to be a mother, insha Allah, and I'm still with this character that just smash a person once he/she get me irritated, what will happen to the kid? 

Truly it's not easy to self-restrain. It is easier to burst the anger out rather than to keep it. 

and she start mumbled, 'why everyone hates her'. 
'Oh ya, you are so irritating and annoying, that's why!', my heart whisper.

But truly I'm pity at her. It's not her fault for not having 'common sense'. 

She reminds me to my old self, when I still kiddo and how all my sisters keep on scolding me day and nights. Everything I do, there must something wrong to them. Not to say my mum. She is legend in scolding me day and night. That is how I grew up and learning what is 'common sense'.

I believe she never been scolded and told what is hygiene and what is common sense. Unfortunately she is an orphan, her mum died when she still child.

I feel bad but I'm just a normal human that has flaw by her own.

Too bad, Since I just read Quran last night and Allah promised for those who forgive other people's fault, Allah will forgive him/her.

I believe I did much misdeed that truly breach the 'common sense' in Allah's sight. But never Allah 'smash' me or yell and say, "You are annoying".

Dan segeralah kamu kepada (mengerjakan amal-amal yang baik untuk mendapat) keampunan dari Tuhan kamu, dan (mendapat) Syurga yang bidangnya seluas segala langit dan bumi, yang disediakan bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa;Iaitu orang-orang yang mendermakan hartanya pada masa senang dan susah, dan orang-orang yang menahan kemarahannya, dan orang-orang yang memaafkan kesalahan orang. Dan (ingatlah), Allah mengasihi orang-orang yang berbuat perkara-perkara yang baik; { 3:133-134 }

Truly Allah is The Most forgivenl and I have to learn that character. Not easily to be mad to anyone,  don't simply yell to people that really hit my 'red button' even so I used to be yelled once upon time ago.

hew hew.. sah Qurratul ni not yet pass to step in another step. U've a lot to learn, Qur and a long wayy to go.

3 days to go
before I leave this place

Neptune 2, #Suite 1069
209 Fort York Boulevard

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