Hidup dengan PILIHAN..

Hidup ni penuh dengan pilihan.
Contoh nak solat dulu atau makan dulu?
Hidup aku pun begitu.
Pilihan lebih menyesakkan bilamana antara dua pilihan, dua2 tu pun baik.

Dari mula,
antara nak pegi Darul Quran atau tunggu JPA n UPU.
JPA xdpt, dpt USIM.
dah dapat USIM, kena buat pilihan lagi
antara nak stay course account atau tukar amik law.

now, antara nak pilih USIM atau JPA Canada.

hmm..masih istikharah. bak kata kakak2 kat usim ni, buatlah sampai hati berasa tetap n yakin dengan pilihan tu.

macam2 yg respon bila aku tanya pandangan n pendapat.

kak ummu,

tahniah. !bagus sgt2 course tu. nanti boleh bnyk menyumbang kpd islam.

kak atiqah niqab

salam. apa khabar kamu? Rindu kakak dengan kamu. Congratulations..mcm kakak ckp dulu, kamu suka x course tu? kamu jugak kena lihat cabang pekerjaan slps itu. kaji dulu kos yg kamu terima. kakak doakan y terbaik utk kamu. if kamu choose k kanada jaga iman kamu.

aku bls,

hmm..suka la jugak course tu. takpela kak sy istikharah dulu smp hati sy tetap.

dia bls,

tapi cara kamu ckp spt kamu yakin ke kanada. firasat akak. huhu..ingat sayang, apa pon ketentuanNya, terima dengan hati yang ikhlas. Kakak doakan yang terbaik.

Teacher KB,

Tahniah! Tice rasa u patut terima offer tu. peluang hanya sekali. this is the time u ikut si tenggang. knowledge n experience. THe road not taken?

Nak terima ke tak?

Salam.
Jap tadi aku dapat satu pengisian jiwa. Tapi sebelum tu, aku nak citer pasal satu benda.

Petang tu, tetiba dpt msg dari kwn aku, kata kputusan rayuan jpa dah keluar. Ak tak expect r plak secepat ni. pastu aku msg spark. mintak dia tolong cekkan. lps 10 minit. dia call aku..and....

KEPUTUSAN RAYUAN BIASISWA PROGRAM IJAZAH LUAR NEGARA (PILN) 2008 JABATAN PERKHIDMATAN AWAM


No Kad Pengenalan 900522********
Nama Penuh NUR QURRATULAIN BINTI HAMZAH
Bidang Pengajian SASTERA DAN KEMANUSIAAN
Negara KANADA

TAHNIAH



Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa rayuan saudara/saudari untuk mendapat penajaan biasiswa di bawah Program Ijazah Luar Negara (PILN) 2008 telah diluluskan. Tawaran biasiswa ini dibuat setelah mengambil kira syarat yang ditetapkan dan baki kekosongan tempat mengikut bidang pengajian. Oleh itu, bidang pengajian yang ditawarkan kepada saudara/saudari melalui rayuan ini adalah muktamad.

Sebarang rayuan bagi pertukaran Pusat Persediaan, Bidang Pengajian dan Negara Pengajian TIDAK akan dipertimbangkan.

Sekiranya saudara/saudari menerima tawaran ini, sila sahkan melalui pautan
Pengesahan Penerimaan Biasiswa PILN 2008 sebelum jam 11:59 malam 10 Jun 2008.

Surat tawaran rasmi akan dihantar kepada saudara/saudari melalui pos setelah Jabatan ini menerima pengesahan penerimaan tawaran daripada saudara/saudari.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Bahagian Pembangunan Modal Insan,
Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam,
Malaysia.

Yang ni memang aku tak pernah sangka-sangka. Tak mengharap sangat pun. Cuma pasrah, redha and tawakal. Tu je yang aku buat. Nak kata doa banyak pun, tak jugak. Tapi, aku yakin doa aku Allah dengar. Aku ikhlas, n betul2 mintak. tapi aku memang tak menyangka. tak pernah terfikir pun. CANADA!! ak aim UK jek.. nak berhijrah dari Ulu Kelang ke United Kingdom...tapi alih2 terdapat Canada..so, i think, rezeki..tapi ni course sastera dan kemanusiaan.. i'm not so sure bout it. maybe ade link ngan political sc, social sc, or human sc..

masa kecik2 dulu..aku suke sangat nama negara canada. ala kan biasa main nama negara. yg ada makanan la, benda, binatang. then kena isi ikut huruf depan.. ala game bodo2 je..tapi mmg dr kecik ak suke huruf C. so mungkin inilah dia.. Sebenarnya, dari masa aku mohon untuk rayuan tu pun, hati aku macam lebih berat to human science. Kalau diberi peluang, aku lebih nakkan human science berbanding law. Sebab kalau nak buat law kat oversea, ak tak berapa rasa relevan sangat. Bukan sebab apa. Tapi sebab melihat pada keadaan semasa. Jadinya, ak rasa, belajar law kat Malaysia mungkin itu lebih baik. Sebab nanti undang2 malaysia jugak nak deal.

Ok, baru jap tadi mama call.
Mama tanya,
“ macamana? Yang ditawarkan tu human science. Human science ni susah nak dapat kerja. Macam anak sedara chodah tu. Smp skrg tak de kerja.”

Ak jwb,
“ hmm. Well. Human science ni nanti future dia mcm motivator kan?”

“ A’ah. Yelah. Tapi nanti susah nak dapat kerja.”

Ak terfikir. Dapat kerja atau cari kerja? Hmm..dapat kerja tu maknanya mcm tunggu smpai ada kerja. Tapi cari kerja tu, carilah. Tp apa kata kita buat kerja. Tak payah tunggu, tak payah cari. But we create the job. WHY NOT??

Aku pun jwb,
“Well, I think dapat kerja or tak, is on our individual. For me, to be a motivator is what I really want to be.”

Ini first time aku confess macam gitu. Seriously, sblum ni aku tak pernah terfikir begitu jelas n serius. Tapi ntah kenapa, hati aku seakan-akan macam nak jadi yang itu. Macam itulah kata hati aku, buat masa ni. Andai kata human science tu part of counselor, motivator. Sebabnya, salah satu sebab yg menguatkan lagi untuk ak berperasaan macam tu, ialah tadi. Mcm ayat pertama aku, pengisian jiwa..

Lepas balik dari surau, dengar tausiyyah sikit, balik dari tu, adalah beberapa input yg ak dpt. Tp tu, aku akan story lps ni. The point is, balik je dari situ, hati ak ada berdesis ak nak jadi seseorang yang banyak bagi kesedaran dekat orang. Sebab pada aku, itulah sebenarnya yang aku terasa nak buat. Macam masa kat sekolah n macam yg ak pernah ckp dkt rizal take charge, yg aku berminat nak jadi seorang motivator. So, sebenarnya I want to be motivator but somehow, I don’t realize what I want and I’m confused. Why? There is a story behind it.

*Ni sambungan call mama
Pastu mama Tanya.
“ Then why did u take law as your first choice? “

“ ok. Let me tell you something. You know what, because I think u like what you said my future will be a lawyer/ accountant. Then, that’s why I think law is my first choice. Coz that time, I don’t really know, what I want. So, I just take as what you said. “

“ When did I said like that?”

“ ok. Did you still remember that one night which was the PMR result not came out yet, and I ask u abah mama about the subject. What should I take? Then you write there, your future will be law/accountant. InsyaAllah. So, I really take it seriously. And I’ve set it as my goal. I set it in my mind. But sort of, when the days come, I’m keep thinking, am I really want to do law? Wht is law really about? I’m confused.”

“So, nak buat macamana? Nak terima ke x?”

“ hmm..i don’t know. If that so, will you allow me to go there?”

“ Abah kata, human science ni susah nak kerja. Accounts is more demand for the world.”

“ Ok, if we talk about future, I don’t really want to work in my future. What I want to do is, I want to focus more to family n deal with society. I don’t care bout the world.”


“ Hmm.. yelah. Adik tak cuba Tanya kawan2 ke? nanti Tanyalah ustazah ke macamana course ni.. “

“ A’ah..nanti kenalah buat istikharah. Lepas tu, I’ll meet somebody la. Prof ke..counselor, lecturer2 n orang2 ke.. and I’ll make research la human science ni nanti macamane. How the subject..”

“ Hmm..oklah kalau macam tu.tp nanti kena jawab seblum selasa depan. ”


Lebey kurang macam tu r, sdutan perbualan antara ak ngn mama.

Pasal pengisian kat surau tadi,
Dia more to persoalan.

Kenapa kita ada di sini?
Kenapa kita amik course ni?
Apa sebenarnya matlamat kita?
Apa yang kita nak jadi?


Tapi, masa mula2 tu, akak tu tekankan pasal niat.
Dia kata,
Kita selalu hari2 bangun tido. Lepas bangun tido, kena naik bas, pegi kuliah. Then balik kuliah. Pastu lapar, gi makan. Then solat lps tu tido. Kita jarang tekankan bab niat. Buat sesuatu dengan berniat. Kita main buat je, tak niat apa2. Sebenarnya, itu hidup yang kosong. Hidup yang takde matlamat. Jadi, apa2 nak buat, mesti dimulakan dengan niat.

Lagi pasal cara befikir. Aku Tanya, macamana nak tingkatkan tahap pemikiran kita?

Akak tu jwb, “ hanya dengan 2-3 cara”

1. berjalan. Sebab bila berjalan kita nampak kesedihan org. yg kita ni, hidup pada zaman yg amat selesa…€

2. halaqah/ usrah. Hera khals. Tapi kene. dengan ini, kita dapat bertambah iman n bukaak fikiran y jumud ni..

Baguslah start kali ni.
h

Hmm.. ni just that..dah ngantuk!! @_@

Rabu 12.12 mlm. 5 Jun 2008

Day 5 in Usim

Today is my fifth day here. I don't know, till when. maybe until i dont have anymore time to post something. yeah. like Madam Alifah my Principle account lecturer said, as an university student you have really to read more. Somehow, i admit it is really need. so, i think, by next time maybe no such time to blog simply. yeah..

What happen today?
Hmm..today mama abah come to see me to send the scholarship form to the academic unit. and mama ask me, how was usim? well, i said not too bad. yealah..budak2 sekolah agama kan..terasa xbest lak cite dlm bahasa penjajah nih..

ah. belasah je r. k r tadi aku citer r kat mama. pasal aku mesej kat ustazah hayati. ala tp tadi ak send sume mesej yg same kat bbrp cikgu. Cikgu Noraini Ibrahim, cikgu bm ak ms f3 n sej ms f5, Ust. Kyairol Zamri, ajar PAI ms f5, Ust Yusri - ajar dr f1-f5 KKQ n b.arab, n Ustazah Haryati.
Mesej dia lebey kurang cenggini..

Salam. Cikgu apa khabar? sy kat dah masuk U. dpt USIM. dunia yg berbeza dari dunia sekolah..

Cikgu Noraini balas,

Tahniah! Anak sedara cikgu pun baru mendaftar disana. Zarina Sharin. Amik law. dari KISAS.TQ.

ust kyairol reply,
Wassalam. Ust. Sihat. Wa Tahniah dapat melanjutkan pelajaran di sana. Semoga minat kamu terhadap ilmu islam dan kerja2 Islam tak pernah luntur. Semoga sukses.

Ust. Yusri plak balas,

Wkmslm. Ok sihat. Baru sampai KL dr kg. Tahniah dpt jadi mhsisi usim. Bljr elok2. Pandai2 jaga diri dalam dunia kampus. Kirim salam pada izlina. Dia dpt mana?

Ustzh Haryati,

Tahniah. Teruskan comitment anti. Jgn lupa ustazah ye.

Aku balas,
Takkan la lupakan ustazah. Kalau sy lupa, takkan la sy bagitau ustazah. =D Sy dlm dilema ni, sama ada nak tukar course ke x. sy dpt account. n dia bg masa dlm 1 minggu utk tukar course.

Ustzh Haryati balas,
La, kenapa tak amik course agama law? Account tak berapa sesuai untuk perempuan.

Pastu, aku terus call ustazah. tanye ustazah la.

Ustazah kata,

"tgk pada apa yg kita nak jadi. Kalau nak jadi accountant balik tu, mcm susah sikit la. nanti kerja smp malam. tapi kalau setakat nak jadi guru mengajar account, tu ok lagi. ye la nanti masa hadapan berkeluarga pun kena pk. kalau undang2, kita deal dengan orang. berbanding account, yg lebih duduk pejabat. jadi ilmu dakwah tu boleh kita aplikasikan lebih bila kita amik law. ikut pada antilah. fikir skrg ni, macamana cara nak aplikasikan ilmu yang ada, untuk kemaslahatan ummah. pastu, buatla solat istikharah.tgk mane yg cenderung"

"oh..hmm..betul jugak. nanti mesti nak kawin n berkeluarga kan ustazah. nanti yg jadi keutamaan ialah anak2. kerjaya tu no.2. sebab bukan kerja kita cari nafkah. tu kerja org laki! tol gak tu..tapi kan, sy xreti r tafsirkan camne kecenderungan tu..nk tafsirkan petunjuk..camne ek ustzh??"

"ala senang je. tgkla pada anti mana hati lagi berat. ala macam anti dulu amik b.arab masa SPM. takde orang pun yg amik. tp anti amik. Kenapa?"

"sebab sy rs, mcm xdpt lepaskan b.arab masa tu. sy mmg nak ..sbb tu r..."

"ha..mcm tu r jugak. meaning, anti amik sesuatu tu, ada hujah n sebab dia yg kuat. kenapa anti nk amik atau buat mcm tu..buatlah soalt istikharah dlm masa 3 hari. ikhlaskan hati, ikhlaskan niat.."

"oh..mcm tu ek..ok2..nt sy cube..terima kasih ek ustazah.."

"ok...same2.."

mcm tu r,..lebey kurang dialog ak ngan ustazah..ade agi.. tapi yg lepas tu, ustazah tanye pasal gud.

ustzah tanye,
"gud kat mane skrg?"

ak kate
"gud tu kat kuis. amik ape ntah. law kot. tadi dia baru je hntr mesej kt sy. kecek arab . haizz.."

so, tu r sedikit sbnyk...

abah plak, citer kat ak pasal ape yg penting nye account ni. one of it, is accountant je yg bleh turn over the company. mana2 firm n company need accountant. n mmg accountant in demand.

hmm..tu aku tau..

now, aku dah ada 2view.
tadi nk try call ust kyairol, tapi xdapat lak. ust tgh tuisyen. =< mata =")">

4th day in USIM

" Ain, awak tak rasa sedih ke tinggalkan family? "

tanya Jannah. budak sekolah SBPI Gombak.

Jawab aku,

" Entahlah. Belum feeling lagi kot. "

" Takdela..nampak awak macam takde nampak sedih pun. Ceria je. Yela awak kan first time tinggal jauh n tak asrama.."
Aku hanya mengelamun "Hmm...."

Ok, secara jujur dan peribadinya buat masa ni, aku belum lagi pernah nangis sebab tinggalkan my beloved parents and my family. cuma macam aku citer dalam posting lepas, aku nangis sikit masa saat2 berpisah tu. Itu pun sebab aku express mintak halal n mintak maaf. Kalau sampai part tu memang aku lemah. Mesti rasa sebak. tak kira waktu. hatta kadang2 masa sebelum tido takpun masa lepas solat ke, kadang2 aku express, still rasa sebak gak. tapi tahan2 n cover2 r. malu seh..huhu..tapi nak dikatakan, nangis masa tu je. pastu dah tak nangis dah.

berbalik pada cerita tadi, aku pun terfikir ar gak sebenarnya..dalam hati aku kata ' a'ah eh..betul jugak! nape aku tak sedih ek? '

hmm..
ntah r..ape yg aku rasa, aku pun tak rasa apa2 sangat. takpe r tutup citer.

harini, izlina pegi wat umrah! aku kirim hajat kat dia banyak2. ada dalam 23. nak postkan kat sini terasa macam panjang lak. sebak je dia tadi.. huhu..nak wat camne, ak tak bleh nak feeling sebab masa tu dalam kelas lecture. tu pun cuba2 gak layan2 dia. nak terus letak rasa macam kejam r lak. lagipun dia dah nak pegi kan..huhu..tapi memang lecturer sound ar gak tadi. katanya, takbleh jwb call or tengok sms masa dlm kelas dia. tapi ak diamkan aje la. angguk2, geleng2..haha.. takde r sebabnya, iz call pun masa dia dah nak pegi. dh smpai airport n dah nak naik flight dah. terharu r gak, dia call aku. aku r rase serba salah sket, tak ingat dia masa aku nak masuk usim. mesti dia sedey kan..mmg tu r kelemahan aku. bab berkawan ni, ak tak berapa amik endah kadang2. mcm apa terjadi aku ngan sarah r kot. bila dah makin membesar, aku macam makin pinggirkan. at last, friendship pun dah tak berapa close. as sarah jenis talkative n kdg2 ak bz, so bila dia takde kawan nk bercerita or bercakap, tu yg dia cari kawan lain. tp maybe elok pun. nak wat camne..huhu T_T itulah sarah kawan baik aku yang dulu. Sarah!! oh sarah!!...kawan aku dari darjah 1. sama macam aliah gak. tapi aliah, kita mula rapat masa darjah 6.

so ape citer hari ni ek?
Well harini hari ke-4 aku kat sini. n the very first class. unfortunately, takde lecturer untuk first class tu, and tunggu sampai sejam lebey. tp lec x sampai2 gak. budak2 tu ak rs da jd mcm cacing kebosanan. aku, plak dalam tu, bleh tahan r.. try cari something untuk dibuat. dgn membaca apa2 yg ada depan mata aku. mcm tadi, aku dah berjaya khatamkan 2 buku. HEP dgn aktiviti pelajar. buku yg for sure plg bosan. tp somehow, ak try r baca as long aku ade mood. InsyaAllah kalau ada mood tu senang r masuk apa yg aku baca. bleh la gak absorb. dh masuk jam ke-2. bilik tu dh mkin bising, n smp satu ketika ada sorang budak pempuan ni gi pasang sheikh ghamidi kuat2. terus senyap bilik. ye r..org baca quran kena r hormat. lagi2 sume situ dak skolah agama. budak tu pasang surah yasin ngan sajdah. bagus r. terasa zuk bila dengar bacaan quran.
n dalam kesempatan yang ada, ak amik kesempatan promote website iluv. alhamdulillah. bagus. cuma tak tau mcamana sambutan. somehow tadi tengok dorang bleh absorb info. so, just check it out.

so, harini 2 class yg takde lec. aku kalau dah rasa malas nak tunggu lagi, aku angkat kaki je. yg lain tu, bila aku angkat kaki, baru ikut sama blah gak. ye r..maybe takde orang yg nak memulakan. hmm..slalu camtu..

so, skang dah asar. so , that's all for today. sok pun ade klas ag. dari kol 8-4. hmm..bleh tahan gak pack. tapi bagus r pack. aku suke! dlm kelas tadi, masa takde lec ak tengok2 buku hep. n ak dah target few thing yg ak nak join. contoh mcm kelab debat, Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar (MPP) n Urusetia Pembangunan Mahasiswa.. lebey kurang gitu r..so kat buku tu siap bagi no hp tuk leader persatuan tu. so ,ape agi.. aku cekup r..somehow, ak rs, utk debat no hal. sebab ketua dia aku dah kenal scr tak langsung. kenal dari malam kebudayaan..oh...itu malam mcm night mare bg ak..takpe2 nanti ada masa aku citer lagi..tp feeling tuk malam tu agak teruk r. (aku je rs mcmtu)

ape2 pun, salah satu sebab or faktor nape ak berkobar2 n tak sabar nak masuk ape2 ni.. sebab ak dah lama tahan. selama 5 bulan terperap dok umah. n tak wat ape2..so, mmg dulu lagi ak pernah kata kat diri aku, ' siap r, masuk je U nanti, aku takkan biar aku ada masa lapang n senggang. No way! ak akan aktifkan diri seaktif2nye..!' sebab tak tahan bosan. so, this is the first step. ak akn try check up kpd mereka2 yg berhubungan n berkaitan..

so, that's all for today. dah asar pun kat sini..

3rd day in USIM

Salam to All.

Well, today i woke up at 6. Take shower and solat subuh. Somehow, i've done solat subuh alone. but then, when i saw Ayuni was not solat yet then i ask her to solat together. After that, siap2 to go. At the moment, i dont know why i cant smile with a happy heart. terasa hati berat. n nak senyum kat orang pun berat. i'm not sure what is really goin on. After i confess to iz yesterday, i thought the thing hv get rid from my mind and no need to feel like that anymore. but it's not.

pagi tu terasa sukar untuk aku mengukir sebuah senyuman yg tulus dari hati. hati bagai sesak. mmg ak xde mood nak senyum kat orang. xde mood nak berborak. xde mood nak buat kawan. juz lyn diri sendiri. i dont really care bout others.

Bertolak dari hostel pukul 8. dah sampai, sarapan dulu. sarapan aku pagi ni total dalam RM3.80. tp bayar 5 ringgit. sbb ntah camne ak tersilap congak. beli ape je!T_T

Sandwich Tuna = RM1.40

Mineral water = RM 0.80

Roti Cream RM 0.60

Fish Ball = RM1

Pas makan, pegi dewan kuliah pusat 1 (DKP1). Sesi pendaftaran fakulti. Before dat, dia amik masa lama r gak. yg kurengnye, ak xbwk buku y best. yg ada buku HEP, buku aktiviti. masa tu lak, mmg ak xde mood. tp dh xwat ape, paksa baca r. smp jadi ngantuk. n ak pun tido. tp bila dh tersedar, tak mula2 lagi. ak tdo balik. nak rs mengantuk, tp sebenarnya, ak tak berapa nak tido..tp dipaksa2kan gak..sbb tak tau nak wat ape ag..huhu..

The registration just took time almost an hour. Then the everyone can bersurai. No class for today. but fo tomorrow, the class will be at 8. So, today has lot of free time. and i hv used it to seek the internet! Well, i've asked people there. where to get the internet.just cant stand away from internet! Before exit to the main entrance, i've been asked by this one gurl. whether i want to change course or not. If yes, she asked me whether i've completed the appeal's letter. I said to her that i've done nothing. Somehow, she also want to change course. But from law to medic. So, i said to her, if that so, we need to write the letter. So, let's go to the lab. Then, she followed together by her friend. Unfortunately, her friend is friend of mine also. Internet world. Sarah Adibah. hmm...coincidence?? neh...

here the internet is free as it was included in the Univ. fee. Not too bad. just one thing the quality not so good. As, there is no mozilla. So, some pages cant loading perfectly. After blogging at the moment until zohor, i decide to go to the library n want to see the caunselor as i've ask Pn. Rin to meet her today. But somehow, it was raining and i've to change plan by going back to the lab. i'm getting bored. but before my boreness getting worse, the raining had stopped. In the same time. my stomach was starving. So, i went to the cafe to have the lunch.

Taking Nasi with hotdog and sayur taugeh, just almost RM.3.50! quite expensive..T_T..maybe i shud fasting starting from tomorrow. ~_~

Then, finish my lunch, i went to the library. Before that, singgah ko-op..buy test pad and mineral water. total is RM.3.60.

at the library i find the book for tomorrow lesson. Microeconomy, Business maths and principle accounts. i just want to get some rough pictuer what will i learn tomorrow. i thought i want to borrow the books. but somehow, i cant do that because i'm still new. and the data was not check in yet.. i hope maybe i can phtostate few pages as notes and can read it tonight . but alsoi cant do that. as i need to buy the photostat card at the ko-op firt. then i can use the photostat machine.

In the meantime, i went to the HEP building and have met the pembantu tadbir. and i've make an appointment to see the caunselor. hehe..i feel like want to see the doctor je. but somehow, ni doc psycho. The reason why, i really need caunselor at this time, it is because i think i really need help in getting the righ mindset. i want to get clear what i want in my life and also, how i want to get clear the reason i am here and the reason why i take the course. i just want to get clear my mind n with full heart. Get the goal clear. What i want to achieve at this time, what i want to be, what is my dream n sort of. these are the few things that i want to consult to the caunselor. few question that always bear in my mind.

So, that's all for today. Tomorrow i have my very first class. Full-day. From 8 until 4. maybe if got time, r day after tomorrow i'll post some more. Somehow, the part 2 wil be continued after this. as there is cesequence from the story.

First Day in USIM ~ new world!~

Salam to all.

This is my first post just after step into a new world. Campus world. Well, i'm trying to find the word and to express everything what's all in my heart. This is whai i feel and hope there is a lesson to be learnt espesically for myself.

Addinu Nasihah. Agama itu nasihat.

ok. nak start dari mana? Hmm.. dari first day i step in. But before that, i want to story a night before.

~mlm sblum berangkat~

aliah datang rumah aku dalam pukul 9 kot. aku tersedar n terjaga dari tido. ntah r. patutnya malam tu beriya mengemas for the last shot. tapi bila lepas maghrib tu aku rasa mcm dizzy sket. maybe sbb aku mkn ubat selsema. katil bilik anyah terasa ringan je badan nak landing. so, terlanding la. sedar2 aliah dah datang. hmm..layan2..tak sedar masa berjalan dah pukul 10 lebey. well, dh nak balik tu, baru mcm talk heart-to heart. barulah aku tau, macamana sbenarnya hati aliah ni. aliah dah balik, aku ape agi mengemas la barang-barang. tapi dh sampai pukul 12 lebey, aku dah flat. ye r. makan ubat buat ak rasa nak tido awal. padahal masa tu baru je kol 12 lebey. tak macam kebiasaan. pukup 12 tu pun tak rasa ngantuk agi. so, dh tertido laa.

barang yg dh pack siap cuma beg baju n beg makanan n troli barang. ade r dlm 90%.

Sabtu, 31 Mei 2008.

Sebelum berangkat.

Harini tersedar awal. walau aku tido kol 12. biasa, susah gak nak bangun awal. aku tersedar dalam pukul 6 tepat. so, terus mandi n solat subuh jemaah kat bawah. mmg siap cepat r, sebab ada barang sikit lagi, aku nak bawak. tp tak tersusun. lepas solat, abah terus kata " ha, siap cepat. pukul 7 kita gerak." Aku dah terkezutt..dh tak dapat nak pikir waras sangat. sebab terasa ada r gak byk barang yg kecik2 yg aku nak bawak. n nak pk n cari buku apa nak bawak. mcm dictionary sume..tapi tu r. huhu TT_TT
so, terfikir kat benak aku, cuma borang2 and fail sijil. yang jadi kelam kabut tu bila fail tu aku lupa letak mana. punyela merata mencari at last, alhamdulillah Allah bagi ilham ak teringat bendalah tu ada kat kabinet besi. So, nak citenya, pagi tu agak kelam kabut sket. n aku bajet nak lengkap kan sume borang2 yg patut diisi tu malam semalam. tp sebab dah terflat, so borang2 tu sume tak terisi.

Dalam Perjalanan

dalam kete, aku mula2 baca paper. pastu dah lama2 naik ngantuk mata aku. so, tido r sepanjang perjalanan tu. celik2 je dah sampai usim. mata aku mula nak terbukak bila dh sampai dekat entrance.

Dah sampai so, pergilah ikut direction yang security guard tu tunjuk. dah setel parking, kitorang pun menuju la tempat yang patut dituju. Masa tu, tak de plak orang yg nk tunjuk arah ke, kat mana tempat pendaftaran. tapi tak ramai orang pun kat situ. n takde plak tampal besar2 ke kat mana arah seterusnya nak pergi. Dia bajet macam kita tau jek. Dalam hati aku membentak, ape r . takde usher ke! Dah sampai tempat sepatutnya, aku ngan mama main terjah je r. ikut yang macam kertas program. tulis tempat pendaftaran DKP2. so, mencari2lah DKP2.

Masa waktu pendaftaran

dah jumpa then melangkah masukla ke DKP 2, masa tu mcm sesi fotografi. so, aku yg tak tau apa2 ni, terus ar amik no. tengok, bila dh smpai turn, kakak tu tanya. "Mana slip pendaftaran? " Aku mmg blurr, tak tau ape. kate r. "ntah. takde" "tak pegi bilik sebelah lagi ke?" "tak. tak tau"

pastu akak tu mcm naik suara sket. tapi takde r nada marah.

"laa..nape tak tanya orang??"

" takde orang pun tadi.."

Dlm hati aku..' ekeleh..dah r takde usher. mane r aku tau nak pegi mane! '

so, pastu kena r pegi bilik pendaftaran dulu. angkutla segala barang. dlm hati aku terasa lak..aku ni dah r bukan nak masuk sangat usim ni. bolehlah jugak nak dikatakan. terpaksa. (scr jujurnye). mcm aku pernah kata, usim is my last choice instead of no other choice. so, bleh agak tak camne perasaan aku bila mula2 masuk. tp ak try r gak prepare mentally but not emotionally. i feel nothing. fikiran aku terasa kosong. n hati terasa plain. somehow, ak tak teruja pun, tapi ak just rasa teruja sikit sebab nak masuk dunia baru. n fasa baru of my life. itu je. but for usim. i feel nothing. tak excited. nak kata gembira pun tak gak. mungkin sebab bukan pilihan aku. dats y. tp nak kata aku sedih dapat usim, pun takde r jugak sebenarnye. rs terkilan sikit tak dpt pe yg aku nak, tp tak sedih dpt ape yg aku taknak. ha mcm tu r lebey kurang perasaan aku.

So, masa mendaftar tu aku amik masa lama glerr..sebab aku tak isi borang2 yang patut dah isi. penat tangan!masa tu, aku terasa aku gerak sangat lambat. berbanding orang lain. baru terasa, penangan tak prepare! huhu ..memang ada kelebihan bg orang yang bersedia n sentiasa bersedia. bagi mereka yang tak bersedia, memang agak rugi. Aku termasuk orang yang rugi sikit, sebab lambat n terlepas plak taklimat utk pelajar baru . Lambat sebab tak prepare. Tak fully rasa nak masuk. n tak terfikir nak duduk lama. sbb pada fikiran, harapan masih ada pada UIA. so, settle pendaftaran dalam pukul 12 lebey. lps tu, disusuli ngan jamuan. Dah makan2, mama n abah gi toilet. Then, gi kete n terus gi camelia court. Tempat aku tinggal.

Kolej Kediaman Camelia Court (KKC)

So, dah dapat tempat parking kat tepi jalan. Bermulalah sesi mengangkut barang. Aku dapat blok A5-1-1. Tingkat 5!! Haizz....kuruslah aku macamni. Sememangnya pernah terfikir gak nak buat banyak puasa bila dah masuk campus ni. sebab aku masa kat rumah, jarang2 sangat puasa. Ye ar dlm zon selesa. huhu..T_T teruk r gak. So, tariklah troli bag tu dengan mama. Mama hantar sampai depan blok je. Dah habis angkut n tarik bwk gi depan blok, it's time to angkut barang bawak naik atas. tp sblum tu, dah cek dulu, kata mana bilik mmg betul ke bilik A5-1-1- kat situ. pergh..sekali naik, tercungap2 aku.huhu..pastu dah kompem bilik, aku letak dulu beg sandang n sume barang kat atas katil. Dugaaan dah letak barang dulu, aku turun balik. cakap kat mama bilik tu betul. lpas tu, angkutlah beg baju yang agak berat. ya Allah, hanya Allah je tau rasa dia. dah sampai tingkat 3, pun dah tercungap. memang la sangat.. gembira bersama usim. motto tu memaaang ada makna! T_T.. dah sampai, juz letak je bag kat situ n turun lagi amik barang seterusnya. angkut lagi barang, mendaki tangga. sorang2 je angkut tau. abah tunggu kat kete. mama tunggu kat bawah. adik-beradik aku lak takde satu pun ikut. sume ade hal. huhu..kadang2 terasa r gak. dulu masa dorang masuk univ, masuk asrama, aku mesti ada ikut sekali. ye r.. nt nk kene tolong angkat2 kan barang..tapi masa aku, takde sorang pun. tp takpe r.nak wat camne..

dah sesampai je ak kat tingkat 4, baru ak teringat, aku tertinggal kunci kat atas katil. saspen aku! takut2 terkunci. tiba2 betul n tepat sekali jangkaan aku. dalam bilik takde orang. n kunci tertinggal kat dalam. Ya Allah...! Pastu aku pun turun, n kata kat mama aku tertinggal kunci kat dalam. Mama tanya, " macamana boleh tertinggal?" habis r kena smatch.. aku juz jwb, tadi letak sume barang. n terletak kunci tu atas katil tapi bila nak keluar, terlupa nak capai balik. sbb ingat sekejap je. lagipun ada orang masa tu. tapi, aku ada separuh menjerit sket kat mama n orang pandang.., masa mama smatch2..aku kata aku penat! n terus angkut barang lagi naik atas. then abah datang. bla2.. kena lagi smatch.. tp smatch abah tu rasional sket. smatch mama meleret2..( biasa mmg mcm tu)..pastu, abah suh pegi tanya orang yang jaga2 kat situ. mintak master key. so, pegila pulak pejabat pengurusan asrama. dah masuk, kena sound lagi. bla2...yg aku capture lebey kurg mcm ni. " mcmamana boleh jadi mcamni?ini baru masuk dah buat hal. dah buat nama buruk. kalau berlaku lagi, memang kena denda n bayar 5ringgit.ni sebab baru, saya bagi. " T_T..sedey r plak dengar. tapi kaver2..ak juz menjawab lemah. Dah dapat master key, angkutla pulak bakul ( ni barang yg last) naik atas. Angkut sama2 dengan abah. tetiba bila dah sampai atas, tengok2 dah ada orang! hmm...sabarnya hati..dah dapat master key, dah kena sound, then ada orang plak. master key tu tak guna pun. mmg harini free2 kena sound n smatch. all together!. hmm..dugaan. nak wat camne. ..huhu... masa sibuk2 angkut barang tu, ade r gak orang tegur..dia tanya..nape lambat? baru sampai ek...huhu..aku tak tau nak jawab ape? nape lambat..hmm...nape ek?? satu harini je..byk kali aku dengar perkataan lambat! argghhh... dah setel angkut barang, tukar tudung n berkenalan sat ngan roomate baru dah setel angkut barang, tukar tudung n berkenalan sat ngan roomate baru, kitorang pun mintak diri nak gi campus lak.

masa tu, baru aku teringat, master key tu orang tu bg guna 5 minit je! Ya ALLah..ak rasa dah lebey 5 minit dah..ak mmg terlupa. cepat2 gi kat pejabat dia returnkan. dh nk return, kena sound lagi..kata cik annie "kalau awk lambat je lg sikit, sy dh nak announce dah nama awak" huhu 0_o then gi r plak menuju ke campus USIM. ak ketinggalan, n agak lambat r gak. ramai dah pergi...
so, aku gi naik kete. Dari KKC to USIM almost half an hour. Then, tiba r saatnya berpisah.. ckp ngan mama..mintak halal n mintak maaf segalanya. dah lpas cakap tu teras sebak r lak. pastu salam abah. then, angkat kaki n blah...semakin menapak, semakin jauh aku tinggalkan mama abah..tp they still there. mata dah bergenang. i try to control n said to myself .." you are matured gurl k. Qurratul dah besar..xbleh nangis2 lagi.." then, aku pndg blkng n melambai kat mama abah by heart n soul..

to be continued...

To New World

Post ni akan bercampur aduk bahasa. sebab takde mood nak skema. lgpun da lame tak blogging. ntah tetiba masa semakin sempit..T_T

ESok ak akan berada di dunia baru. which is dunia kampus. jeng3..

Perasaan?

ntah r weh.. ak xde perasaan r. nak kata excited mybe 5% kot. tp takder r teruja glerr..azam pun xde r melangit. arus alpha jek.. hmm...something wrong ke ha? ntah r. mungkin ade baik n bagusnye. sebab mengikut pengalaman, bila ak berkobar2 biasa benda tu tak menjadi sgt. n biasanye bila arus tenang kat benda tu bleh menjadi dgn jayanya. contoh mcm temuduga darul quran tu. ak takder r berkobar nak sangat2 masuk. my feeling is plain. tp at last, bleh dpt lak darul quran tu.

same case kot. tp ak rs, ak feel satu benda, kalau dapat ak nak masuk DEBATE. n make sure, once i'll participate i wont let it go. Tak pe tak dapat JPA..siap r nanti. ak akan make sure, ak masuk world debate. lagi best. bleh jalan2 bnyk negara. so, lagi besh. bleh travel round the world. tu kalau ak terer r. so, kire ade r azam y ciput dr hati kecik, nak memantapkan diri so tht i can participate smp world debate. peluang lagi besar kalau ak dpt uia. but somehow, in case kalau tak dapat, takpe..mungkin takdir ak kat usim je kot. yg baiknye dpt jaga hati. usim pun usim r. kalau menetap kat usim, ak akan bg usim naik ranking. yeaa...aja2...tu lg mencabar ye dakk?

well i love challenge!

Great Serdang Debate Championship 2008

Last Friday, I've been to Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM) for GSD, following my sister. Somehow, I don’t really take it seriously that she really meant I’ll be a judge as one team should bring a judge with them. So, I just follow her, instead of being a ‘judge’ coz I know I won’t be. I’ll be just like last time, not included in panelist but as trainee. If that so, it’s ok with me. Well, I’m totally wrong. I am really judging! I was realized that I’ve been the real adjudicator when the 2nd round debates move on. I just realize that I am really judging! Oh man! How could I? I wish nobody knows my age and where I really come from although I am representative of IIUM team. It started to be burst; when a few people asking me, what course did I take? Oh, that’s I really a top secret.

Competently, the debates have done pretty well and I’ve adjudicate for 5 rounds. My marks are considered! That’s the thing that I’m quite surprised as I thought they should just treat me as trainee. But somehow, I am really judging as I can comment over the debates. Well, it is really a nice experience. It’s hard for me to believe this! I am judging over university students! Wow! Isn’t it pretty too much? I didn’t wish they know my real age. I hope I can hide my age behind the ‘matured-look’. Well, somehow, I did open the ‘top secret’ to few debaters that I’ve judged as it is already completely over.

I’ve judge over Universiti Malaysia Pahang (UMP), Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM), UiTM Perlis, Universiti Utara Malaysia (UUM). I just can’t believe this. It’s really great to have the experience and some more; they all are very nice people. I wonder how I can be the judge as the lack of experience, and some more, don’t I look more to high school student face? They never ask me, whether I’ve got experience before in adjudicating. Don’t a judge should the one that is more than the debater? Hmm, by the way, it’s ok then. It’s a bonus to me and this is really a sudden coincidence. I don’t think it will have 2nd time.

What I’ve been go through all 3 days and 2 nights is really a memorable experience. There were good things and little bits of not good things. Ok, let me story from the very beginning.

On my birthday, 22nd May which is on Thursday I think, my sister gave me a call. She asked me whether I want to be judge and follow her to the debates tournament. I just said yes, as I love to be involved but not really as a judge. I just love to learn. Then, she came back home from IIU, and we moved to the UPM early in the morning. On the next morning, before going to the UPM, she had to take her teammates in IIUM. Her teammates were foreigner student which are Nafha and Markanko. Then we leave IIU and move to Serdang. Unfortunately, we have caught in the heavy traffic jam. The debates will start around 9. Somehow, they has really nice usher as with hopeless direction towards the campus, the usher gave a call to tell us the location. Thanks Allah, we finally can make it to reach there before 9.

How come I become the adjudicator??

I’ve asked my sister, did they know I’m still a trainee? How could I be a real judge coz later on I’m not really know how to give comments like the judge used to? She said, nothing to worry. Of course they knew. Oh, ok then. Just assume they knew. Then, the motion is released. I’m started to feel nervous. I’m anxious I will be judge alone. Before the round started while the prep time, I’ve asked the MC, Iqbal Hafiz; will there be one team one judge? I’m still a trainee. He said to me, but u still a judge! ( he’s not mad from the expression but somehow, the intonation if just high) Ok then. Just wait and see.

I’m glad, for the first round; I’ll adjudicate with a sister from IIU too. It’s easy to talk to as we are from the same intuition. Well, her name is Alaman. She really good in give comment. The motion is; “This house believe that(THBT) Prisoner Should Be Allowed To Vote”. The team were UPM VS UiTM Perlis 1. They’ve done pretty well and the margin is so close and only have slightly difference between them. At the affirmative side, their stand is more to human right; uphold the principle of democracy and some more while in the Perlis’s team, they have more concrete argument and one of the point is the prisoner is not responsible enough to give the right to vote. Well, both of them have a good argument but somehow the negative side did better. After the debates, one of the debater asked me, how could she improved her speech? I don’t know what to say, but I just belasah je and say. “ Maybe you can improve by the structure of you speech, the ideas and sort of that..” She just nodded and thanked me.huhu. che waahh..cik qurratul..pandai plak bg komen.

For the next 2nd round, this could be really great. It was just after the round ended up, i've been realize. Wow, i can really give comment over the debates and really judge those peoples. The 2nd round match up was UMP VS UiTM Perlis 2. Motion : THW Legalize the Abortion.

They've clashed just few ideas but the ideas not so strong from the affirmative side yet also from the negative side. What i've comment was over the points that they've brought up. I've said to them something like this..

"For this motion, you should really emphasizes at the word
of LEGALIZE instead of the ABORTION. Its doesnt really matter with the
pain or goodness and all of that stuff but just try to think at the very
first place, what will happen if we really LEGALIZE the abortion? At the very
first place, the teenagers or school student can easily did sex together. n if
unfortunately the gurl get pregnant, then they can just run away and abort as it
had legalize. What will happen to future generation then? Can't you imagine
that..? This should be come from the negative side. But sadly, they dont do
it. If not, they can win the case. By the way, at the affirmative side, maybe
you can came up with we will LEGALIZE the abortion, but then on few restriction.
It's not simply anyone can abort as they have been legalized before. So, by the
restriction you put, you can play safe as they will combat you more. You are the
affirmative or government, you are the one that conduct the debates from the
very first beginning.

In the very first place, after the match, when it comes to the judges to give comment, and Ash the chair of the house have gave the chances to give some comments, i felt really want to add up something as they are under average. Less than should be expected. It should be come with more facts and some more, more concrete points. That was the very first moment i've feel emotional very sudden when it comes to comment. Then i realize, wow i've 'bedal' them unconsciously. After the match finish, and we've gave the affirmative to win, the UMP's team met me and asked what else can be the points to strengthen their cases. Well, i just belasah and said, think about the society and future generation. What the cause effect. Some more, add some mechanism like restriction of legalize the abortion. It is not simply anyone can abort their baby, but it is under few restriction if it really will be legalized.

Well, here are some of the motion and theme that i've jotted down.

Round 1

Adjudicators : Alaman, Ain

UPM VS UiTM Perlis 1

Theme : Prisons and Criminal

Motion

1. THBT Prisoner should be allowed to vote.

Winner : Negative - UiTM Perlis 1

Other motions( that they not choose)

2. THW Privatise Prisons

3. THW Remove the possibility of parole for sex offenders

Round 2

UMP 3 VS UiTM Perlis 2

Adjucators : Ash, Sanad, Ain

Theme: (i cant remember)

Motion

1. THW Legalize Abortion

Winner : Affirmative - UMP 3

Other motions i dont jotted down.

2. THBT Pre-nuptial agreement before marriage is required

Round 3

UiTM Perlis 1 VS UUM

Theme: Economics

Adjudicators : Sendatt, Rahmah, Ain

Motion

1. THBT THe Developing world should prioratize food security over bio-fuel production.

Winner : Negative - UUM.

Round 4

UiTM 4 VS UiTM PErlis 1

Adjudicators : Aravinthan. Lok Sinn Ying. Ain

Theme : Underage

Motion

1. THBT parental consent should not be required for teenagers seeking abortion.

Winner : Affirmative - UiTM 4

Other motion

2.THBT Pregnant student should be allowed to take maternity leave

3. THBT The right to vote should start at 16.

Round 5

UiTM 4 VS UMP3

Adjudicators : Yaacob, Fadzilah, Ain

Theme : Feeling Suicidal

Motion

1.THBT Parents of children who committed suicede should be subjected a negligencee inquiry

Winner : Affirmative - UiTM 4

Other motions

2. THW Descriminalize suicede

3. THW Ban Websited that facilitate suicede

Round 6 ~ QUARTER FINAL

UMS 2 VS IIUM 2

Adjudicators: Omar, Sherry, Aravinthan ( i' m no longer be the judge as i'm represent IIU)

Theme : Democracy

Motion

1. That state owned media should not exist

Winner : Negative - IIUM 2

Other motions

2. That citizen initiated referendums should be allowed on democracies

3. That opinion polls distorts the democratic process.

Round 7 ~ SEMI FINAL

UiTM 1 VS IIU 2

Theme : Dont know ( at the time it released, we are not in hall. but borak2 with shabir)

Motion

1. THW Nursery education should be free and compulsory to all children.

Winner : Negative - IIUM 2

Round 8 ~ FINALE

UiTM 2 VS UiTM 2

Theme: not sure

Motion

1. THBT Doctors should compelled to report the domestic violent.

Winner : Affirmative - UiTM 2

Well, overall, it is really competive towards the end. By the way what i've felt was, I desparately need to improve my english. Why? Because, actually i just cant really understand what are they talking about. Somehow, i really need to warm up in current world issues, if not i'm just like a dumb when comes to the debates like economics, democracy, liberal and sort of.

Although Shahbir said to me is pretty well, and he asked me, why my english very well?"compared to other Malaysian, you are just not like normal Malaysian..did you speak in english at home?" wow...is it really like that? By the way, i told him, that i'm not really speaking at home. Come on la, the environment is not like that. I prefer to use my own mother touge rather than english. But somehow, i admit it is a must and should be improved. Hmm, i'm not really watch tv if you said it's the way to learn english from the movies. I'm also not really a bookworm or fanatic toward the english novel. It's hard to find me finsih english book at all! Seriously. But then, how my english could be good? ( for me not so good la actually, but in the same time not so bad). To say the upbringing? Not so. I use Malay as the main language daily. BUt maybe one of the factor is, although i dont really talk so much in english, but then i've been exposed to. As my syllabus science and maths in english therefore, i think it quite help. As, the teacher usually need to use English in the class as the medium. Therefore, maybe i'm fast learner. That's what i think. Should be grateful then. Alhamdulillah. Praise all to Him. As people cant see the 'dark' site of me.

Well, what i think bout debate at the very first time is, what's the function? You just good in talking and arguing, but then in reality the problem was still there and not solved. Isn't debate just wasitng of time? What's the meaning of debating on all those stuff? But then, when it comes to finale, and one of the VVIP delievered his speech, then I realize something in what he said.

Debate is a platform for you to join and grasp the knowledge, Built the self-confidence and learn the communication skill. No one is born with those skill. Skill should be learnt and not just gifted. To learn
it is by practice and debate is really a good platform to show you
ability.

So, i think debate is not so bad. A few things are good actually and went i came back to home, i feel like asking myself. Will i be a good debater? If i want to really get involved, meaning i have to start READ and ALERT from now on. Because of what, when i'm judging the university student I felt quite sad( it is behalf n on the judge's view. becoz i'm the judge. That's what i saw. but if i'm the debater i think maybe i'll be just like them.)

not finish blogging.. to be continued~

Mari Perkasakan Sabar

Jika engkau bersabar,
takdir itu berlaku juga ke atas dirimu,
tetapi engkau dikurniakan ganjaran pahala.
Jika engkau tidak sabar pun,
takdir tetap berlaku juga ke atas dirimu, dan engkau berdosa.

Perkataan sabar ini terlalu banyak diulang-ulang di dalam Quran dan mempunyai keistimewaan tersendiri. Antara ayat-ayat yang menyarankan supaya bersabar dalam menempuh segala halangan, cabaran dan ujian adalah:Penjelasan Tuhan di dalam surah al-Baqarah ayat 153 yang bermaksud, “Wahai orang-orang yang beriman mintalah pertolongan dengan sabar dan sembahyang, sesungguhnya Tuhan bersama-sama dengan orang-orang yang sabar.”

Tuhan menjelaskan lagi di dalam surah al-Zumar ayat 10 yang bermaksud, “Sesungguhnya Tuhan mengganjari mereka yang bersabar dengan ganjaran yang banyak dan tidak terhitung.”

Tuhan menerangkan di dalam surah al-Anfal ayat 66 yang bermaksud, “Sekarang Tuhan meringankan kepadamu dan dia sudah mengetahui padamu ada ke-lemahan. Sekiranya ada di antaramu seratus orang yang sabar, pasti mereka dapat mengalahkan dua ratus orang dan sekiranya di antaramu ada seribu orang (yang sabar), pasti mereka dapat mengalahkan dua ribu orang. Dan Tuhan bersama-sama orang-orang yang sabar.”

Manakala Tuhan menyatakan di dalam surah Ali Imran ayat 200 yang bermaksud, “Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaran-mu dan bersedialah serta bertakwalah, supaya kamu berjaya mendapat kemenangan.”

Dalam ayat 200 surah Ali Imran di atas mengandungi empat formula mencapai kemenangan iaitu:

* Sabar: Antaranya sabar menahan nafsu, mengendalikan diri dan sebagainya.

* Memperkasakan sabar: Ini merupakan sabar tahap kedua seperti menerima perlian kawan, orang yang iri hati melihat rancangan menuju kejayaan dan sebagainya.

* Bersedia: Bersedia daripada pelbagai aspek dalam menempuhi cabaran dan kegagalan sebelum berjaya.

*Bertakwa: Takwa kepada Tuhan adalah kunci sebelum sabar, memperkasakan sabar dan bersedia.

Walaupun ayat ini berkisar mengenai perang tetapi formula ini sekiranya diaplikasikan dalam kehidupan seharian dan dalam mencapai matlamat, kita pasti merasai dan mengecapi kejayaan. Kemudian, ayat ini diakhiri dengan frasa yang menarik, “Supaya kamu berjaya mendapat kemenangan.”

Lawan sabar adalah mengeluh.

Ia adalah perbuatan yang dilarang oleh agama kerana dengan mengeluh membuat semangat menjadi lemah. Mengeluh juga boleh menerbitkan perasaan kecewa dan putus asa. Sedangkan Tuhan menerang-kan di dalam Quran surah al-Insyirah ayat 6 yang bermaksud, “Sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan.”

Berhubung dengan ayat di sebelah, cuba kita kaitkan dengan peristiwa ini:

Lina putus cinta dengan kekasihnya, dia menangis, ber-kurung di dalam bilik berhari-hari, mengabaikan hal-hal berkaitan dirinya. Kemudian, selang beberapa hari, dia mendapat kekuatan, dia menghubungi kawan-kawan dan mengeratkan persahabatan. Dalam beberapa bulan, dia mendapat teman baru dan berkahwin. Mengimbas kembali, putus cinta dengan kekasihnya, menemukan dia dengan orang yang terbaik untuknya.

Hamdan dibuang kerja kerana syarikat hampir bankrap. Dia gagahi diri, membuka gerai makan kecil. Selepas dua tahun, gerai yang diusahakan itu dijadikan restoran. Beberapa tahun kemudian, dia mempunyai cawangan restoran. Hamdan menjadi bos malah membuka peluang pekerjaan kepada orang lain.

Kenapa Lina dan Hamdan berjaya? Kerana mereka sabar dan memperkasakan sabar dan bersedia menempuhi cabaran. Mereka membeli kesenangan dengan tiket kesusahan. Tanpa masalah ataupun ujian, tidak akan wujud kematangan kerana pengalaman dalam menyelesaikan masalah adalah guru terbaik bagi menjamin kejayaan dalam kehidupan.

Sebagai renungan, “Hidup ini ibarat meniti seutas tali, kadangkala kita jatuh sakit dan terluka, hanya mereka yang melepasi ujian dengan sabar pasti berjaya.”

(Artikel ini dipetik dari buku : Positif untuk Berjaya Nur Hanani Hussin, Mohd Fadzilah Kamsah, Ahmad Zabidi Ab Razak, PTS Millennia Sdn Bhd )
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How can I create the 'read more' ?

Wanted to know about how to manually cut certain long posts on Blogger, with a "read more.." or similarly-named link (possibly with definable link text) to the full-text post (i.e. the permalink of the post page or item page).

As Shay says, Blogger do suggest a way to implement expandable post summaries on their help page, but unfortunately that adds a "read more" link to all your posts, whether you've actually cut them or not. If you want to be selective about it and show some posts in full, but show other, longer, posts only in summary form (i.e. just excerpts from the post, like the first few words or paragraphs), with a link your readers can then click to see the whole post, how do you do it?

How can I create expandable post summaries?

The Quick Answer

• Add tags to your posts to mark which parts you want hidden in the summary version.
• Add CSS declarations to your template to hide those sections on the index and archive pages, but not on post pages.

With this trick, you can choose to display an arbitrary amount of text from the beginning of each post, as a teaser for the whole thing. Then users who want to read the rest of the post can click a link to see the full text. This is handy if you have lots of long articles all on one page. Note that you'll need to have post pages enabled in order to make this feature work.

There are three ingredients that go into this feature: conditional CSS, a "read more" link for each post, and a modification for the posts that use this feature. So let's go through it step by step.

Conditional CSS

We're going to use conditional tags to change how posts display on different pages. Add the following code to your style sheet, depending on what kind of template you have:

(for classic templates)

span.fullpost {display:none;}



span.fullpost {display:inline;}

(for layouts)

span.fullpost {display:inline;}

span.fullpost {display:none;}

Your style sheet is usually near the top of your template, between the tags. If you have your style sheet in a separate file, you'll still need to add these lines in your template, so the conditional tags will work. Just make sure you add in the tags around them.

What we did here was to define a class called "fullpost" that will appear only on post pages (permalinks). Part of each post will use this class, as we'll see later.

"Read More" Links

Add the following code to your template, somewhere after the <$BlogItemBody$> or tag:

(for classic templates)

">Read more!

(for layouts)

Read more!

This link will only appear on the main page and archive pages, and it will redirect your reader to the post page containing the full text of your post. You can replace the "Read more!" text with whatever you like, of course.

Post Modifications

The final piece that we need is a little bit of code in your actual post. Each post that you want to use this feature on will need this code:

This part can actually go in the post template, if you don't want to have to type it for each post. You'll enter the summary text outside the span tags and the remainder inside, like so:

Here is the beginning of my post. And here is the rest of it.

Now, when a reader visits your blog, this post will appear like this:

Here is the beginning of my post.
Read more!

When they click the link, they'll go to the post page where they'll see the whole thing:

Here is the beginning of my post. And here is the rest of it.

Notes:

• As with any template modifications, you should be sure to save a backup copy of your template before you start. Just copy and paste all your code to a text file on your hard drive, so you'll have it there as a replacement in case anything goes wrong.
• An alternative to creating post excerpts like this is to use the show/hide method on entire posts. Each method has its own advantages and disadvantages.
• Advantages to this method: Customizable summaries, rather than titles only. Can be applied to some posts and not others (for instance, you might only want this for your longer posts).
• Disadvantages: Requires changes to the posts themselves, rather than to the template only. However, the "read more" link is in the template, so it will appear regardless of whether a post has been truncated or not. (Modifying this feature is left as an exercise for the reader.)